My Vietnamese English teacher joked about people who has scars on their wrist... ok... seriously, what the actual hell?!! people who has scars on their wrist is not a funny joke. I mean,you might be confused why do they cut their wrist. of course you know it's self harm but ya know why? cuz they have their own stories. each scars they have has a the same or different stories. they're like just wanna let it all out without any notice from anyone around them. ok, I admit I'm a cutter and I've already had 93 scars in total. and it feels like shit when someone jokes about MY scars. Depression, anxiety, fake smiles,... I'm saying this bc lots of Vietnamese I met joked about my scars and it made me cut my wrist and it was not funny at all. that stupid teacher did watched me use my compass and scratched on my wrist hard like how I use the razors with my wrist. ya know what, she made jokes about it! crazy bitch who would like to see her student die...
I wish all the scars I have disappear and I don't have to cut my wrist... I'm very tired of it. I even scream for helps. But some of my teachers don't bother to save me. I feel like I bother people by living in this stupid dirty world with full of lies, cruelty and sins... I just want an apologize from Mr. Michael for ignoring my scars, letting the jerks force me to self harm, mocking me and just treating me like a toy... I'm just too tired of thinking about the hang rope, the pills, the loaded gun, the tower, the knife,... I know I'm strong but it doesn't mean it would last forever... He said he's very stressful but look, I'm stressful too. Except the fact that I suffer in pain, emotion, depression and tears. Sometimes I want to kill myself but then I stop because of my worries for my family and friends. But what about him? He's just stressful but it doesn't kill him because he doesn't self harm...
I am living in Hanoi, glad to chat with all of you I fixed it^^. Oh by the way, the names Aliza Amateur Strait. The last name Dreemurr was from a character in a computer game called Undertale which is my favorite
Everyday is the same. Wake up early, prepare and go to work. Hope I will have few days off so I can let my self relax.
I'm in Vietnam. The Aliza Amateur Strait is my real name. I have a name in Vietnamese as well but meh=/
